its been a year since you passed away mum, and its been such a hard time. tommy g/f has had a baby boy, they called him after my dad...only its irish, cause no one uses patrick any more. i stood for him, and would you believe the only date they had available for the christening was your 1st anniversary i cant believe your not here to talk to and listen to me troubles...i feel so lost without you. i hope your with dad and the two of you are having the greatest time, cause you both deserve it. please watch over us all, and guide me, cause i dont know what to be doing with myself since you passed away, my life has changed so much. i miss you mam, i never realised how much this would hurt. i'm dreading holloween and christmas coming up...cause we wont be celebrating dads birthday and having a big party, or having a party for you birthday in december. mam and dad if theres an afterlife, please give me a sign...show me that your still there and that your alright. love you always, eileen